Saturday, November 15, 2014


24 years since my abortion and my story changes. Changes in how I perceive it and what I want to say about it.

It is something I did. It is not who I am. My abortion does not define me. God defines me.

Now more than anything I want people to know the truth about abortion. I want women and men that are in bondage to the aftermath to find forgiveness and freedom in Christ. From the darkness to the light. I want others to see how God has used my experience to bring glory to Him! He redeems the pain of my past! He restores to me the years that the locusts have eaten! He brings beauty from ashes! I will finally be healed when I meet Him face to face. I will carry the regret for the rest of my days as a consequence of that choice. I will continue to share my experience in whatever way pleases Him.

It is not only my story. It is His.

Friday, October 31, 2014

ND Measure 1

I am very proud of the work I have done on this ad for ND Measure 1.  It will be on the ballot November 4th. Please pray that it passes!

Here is the full interview.

I also was a guest on Kim Ketola's radio show, Cradle My Heart.  

Thursday, July 24, 2014


About a year ago I was contacted by The Barry Agency who wanted me to become their prolife speaker.  I reshot a video and also did some photos.

Ken Barry is my agent and I would be happy to come and speak to you!!

Friday, June 6, 2014

6 Years

After being a moderator on Jill Stanek's blog I decided I to step down.  6 YEARS!! Such an amazing journey I had there! I have met such articulate, genuine, loving people  who have become treasured friends.  I initially started reading in 2007 and started commenting in 2008. Jill asked me to moderate after that.   I wanted to share my experience of being a post abortive mom and shine a light on the REAL tragedy, regret and grief of abortion.  I learned quickly that those that are proabortion do not appreciate putting a face and a name to abortion pain.  Abortion must be encouraged and supported and celebrated!  I received the most amazing education on what some that are proabortion actually believe and think! I also  found some that truly were on the fence and over the years turned to a prolife stance.
I also had the privilege of being contacted by post abortive moms through the blog.  They emailed me and called me and texted me.  I tried to find resources for abortion recovery in their areas and am happy to learn that so many have found healing in Christ!!
Jill has been a mentor/friend for so long and I must admit that it isn't easy to leave what has become a very special place for me. But I know that it isn't really goodbye.  :)

I wrote a blog post for Jill and you will find it here.

Thursday, February 13, 2014


When confronted by me on facebook over her plagiarism of my letters, Hannah Rose Allen wrote this.

"Carla, I am truly sorry. I ask you to please pray about this. Can you please forgive me? I did not maliciously try to take your letter. I can change the letter and take out anything similar to yours or take the letter down completely. Nobody will take me seriously and my story will lose credibility and the pro-life movement will be hurt. Can't we as sisters in the Lord work this out between us?"

I wrote about this experience that happened to me last Saturday.  It has not been an easy week but since writing has always been cathartic for me I expressed my thoughts and feelings here and my dear friend Jill Stanek posted it.

 I continue to tell my story.  I continue to reach out to post abortive women or those in the valley of decision.  I continue to moderate Jill's blog. I continue to chase my four children like a lunatic and find joy in the journey.  I will go where the Lord calls me to go and I will never stop telling others that abortion hurts women.

And just so you know how very serious plagiarism is I give you this.

According to the Modern Language Association plagiarism "is the act of using another person's ideas or expressions in your writing without acknowledging the source...In short, to plagiarize is to give the impression that you have written or thought something that you have in fact borrowed from someone else."

Every year for my high school students they have to read the rules and consequences about plagiarism.  They have to sign and so do I.  They understand that if they copy something and give the impression that they wrote it they risk failing that class!

I am sure my little old nothing blog was easy enough to lift some lines from.  I mean nobody would know right? It's just a love letter tucked away in the interwebs.  Well this mother knew.  This mother knew the words of love she penned to her own daughter.  Replacing my Aubrey's name with her son's name was blatant.  And hurtful.  And I don't believe that Hannah Rose Allen even knows or understands that.